It isn’t where you come from, it’s where you are going that counts.
Ella Fitzgerald
I always remind myself of how easily we can uproot ourselves and thrive anywhere. Even our religion cherishes the idea and entitles us to do so. Cherishing memories, lineage, and places are fallacies that should be eradicated.
The first cosmic covenant; worship, supplicate, and befriend all.
Often people that say they “don’t care” actually do. The moment they discuss you with their friends and family, compete with you, bad mouth you to others or react to anything you do or say is when they give themselves away. You can either be saddened or flattered that you effected someone so much. The perspective is yours to determine.
― Shannon L. Alder
It has been a week since I got involved in an abhorrent situation with my female colleague. Insecure women can not stand mingling with outstanding people, especially women because they realize how miniature they are! She is the sister of my manager’s wife (YES. YOU READ IT CORRECTLY!!!). She was working in another department totally different from our work, but due to the restructure; a lot of departments have been centralized and many employee had to leave their jobs moving to branches and another departments.
She is truly an Arab inclining to nepotism and mobs’ acts. She always comes to work late and no one would blurt out a word. She usually says good morning then screams at my colleagues’ faces because of nonsense, for example, one of them touched her office or did anything relating our job without taking her permission. She has no experience in our field, but her ties allowed her to have the upper hand on important business. Sometimes, I feel she still lives in the era of servitude! Imagine that she kept screaming at my face before others only because I was talking with my new colleague helping her with some papers!!!! She offended me saying nonsense and I have not complaint, then she officially complained me to the manager (HER RELATIVE) purporting that I lack respect and decorum when I talk to her!! Mohamed FIRE HER!!! I hate those people who ride waves. She knows well how conspicuous I am. I have the potentiality to get promoted within a couple of months. I cried like a homeless child. I felt crippled and pathetic and why??? from whom?? someone with no value!!!
Five years ago, I would involuntarily accept such a situation suspecting my demeanor. Now, I am a different person, secure, successful being chosen amongst hundreds and it is only because of my diligence as I have no relatives there to support me. I am a humanitarian believing in everyone’s right to live, work, opine, etc without transgressing others’ rights or trampling on their feelings! Would the Middle East change? Would our ambience get ameliorated? Recently, videos of violence and domestic abuse have become quotidian.
A syrian girl got lynched because she tainted her family’s reputation in the name of love. When retardation would stop speaking loud? When nepotism would fade away paving the road to qualified youths only? When will I be able to serve freely? When will I get the opportunity to flee getting a prestigious degree then come back to get rid of such nonsense! Deep down I know that I will win. That hopeless girl was able to learn English on her own. That pathetic girl was capable of bearing a lot of afflictions peacefully. That girl has been selected amongst hundreds to attend an interview deciding whether to be the decision maker where I work or not. I am still waiting for the result but still unable to fathom their hatred. Do you know that I have been working on my skills for a decade? A girl from the countryside belonging to illiterate family thinking of education as a luxurious thing, so what about planning to traveling overseas to pursue my education singlehandedly! Does success coincide only with sadness and obstacles? Now I know the behind celebrating them after having many gashes but they are still alive and survive. Life goes by but Allah would never forget your cruelty! To Allah we belong and to him we shall return.
Impossible is just a word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It’s an opinion. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing. – Muhammad Ali
I have only three months to change some things in my life. First and foremost, I will look more at the mirror praising my facial features and challenging myself. Yes. I accept who I am, but I can be better. Three months to go on a vegan diet sounds good!
Secondly, let bygones be bygones, therefore I have unblocked some people and had good conversations with old friends. There was neither grudge nor envy. A lot of things have mystified me. I never stopped asking why? I was good! Why did they purport that? This was deleterious and utterly ridiculous! Do not look behind your back as definitions belong to the definers not the defined.
I finished reading all the books. They were informative and page-turner ones. Different genres including religious books, shiite and sunni Muslims, autobiographies, African Americans, apartheid, and politics. Finally, I do not see myself as a hollow pumpkin! Outlooks should be renewed otherwise you are an animated cadaver!
I deep down believe that life is a solo journey. Sometimes it transfixes you, and sometimes it insists on humiliating you! It is motley and full of contradictions. However, we always embrace and clutch to it.
Finally, the first chapter was long and somehow mundane. There is a feeling of happiness tinged with bitterness. I was trekking, and I will keep doing so. Nothing is absolute!
If you want to study abroad rocketing your future, you have to learn English. Diseases are terrifying, unexpected, yet they can be treated and cured if you are acquainted with its disorders. English is the language of science and research. We are locked up into the same room, insulars, parochial, digest only what we receive. What changes this loathsome condition is ENGLISH. Politics, history, education, health, better places to live in, second opportunities, etc rely on English and better comprehension.
“People may say mastering English is out of reach as it requires bulging our bank accounts in the first place. You would never learn English, unless you mingle with native English speakers and only native English speakers. I was born and raised in Egypt and willing to spend the rest of my life there. Therefore, it is utterly ridiculous to waste time on learning. I would never learn, I am a nonentity!” All these are mere hallucinations and superstitions. We are living in the third millennium where the internet is easily accessible to everyone. You only need your persistence and determination to outstrip.
Once upon a time, in 2011, there was an Egyptian girl, a fresh graduate, a hopeful, but the atmosphere shattered her dreams. Wherever she went, predestination forced her to return empty handed. There were that moments of crying, despair, and even envy. After four years of going back and forth, she made up her mind and decided to break the mold. She set off her new solo journey of learning and immersion. Now, that mature woman is running her own blog, ironically, that blog is in English, not in her mother tongue. Besides that, she is about to move up her ladder and have a glittering career.
Success and failure are two sides of the same coin. Who never savoured failure, would never appreciate the taste of success. Hopefully, I can inspire even one person to better his/her life someday. Let me tell you what I have done to learn English in detail.
Patience is the key to get to your desirable destination, otherwise the vehicle would jerk then flip! It took me three years to get where I am today. It may be longer or shorter according to the person and their utmost effort. A couple of years to enlighten the other decades on earth.
Beginners’ plan, https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/0BzXUdSWn9JveTVd4Z0RwWFc3UWc?usp=drive_open
A good plan for intermediate level, https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/0BzXUdSWn9JveVTFpZllQMkttS3M
Who prepare for IELTS, https://drive.google.com/folderview?id=0ByyZWo08OOcUbG1ubUJvWG9YZUE
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