UNFOLD YOUR OWN MYTH

Don’t be satisfied with stories, how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth

Rumi~

Another Realm

And say, my lord, have mercy upon them as they brought me up when I was small

Quran

My father has passed away. He had leukemia and his condition was critical in the last month. I feel ambivalent about the end of his suffering from cancer and his disappearance. I would never forget the last month and his pain as he had lost much weight and become paralysed. Our relationship had been lukewarm, but during the last two months, I was doing my best to buoy him and lighten his worries. Filial instinct pops up in such situations eradicating all the differences in personalities and our interests.

Father; you will be missed and I have nothing towards you but love, peace, relief, contentment, compassion, and longing. I am indebted to you and will always be for the rest of my life. Without your presence in my life, providing me with money and safe house, I would never be able to evolve and be the one who I am today. I wish you overstayed to witness our happen days and success, but monotheists believe in the afterlife, so your body perished but your soul is amongst us. I love you Baba I love you so much habibi.

My Birthday

On my birthday, I feel I am where I should be at my convenience and pace. I thought I was lagging behind, but the truth is that I was fully equipping myself to move swiftly outracing all my counterparts.

I am grateful for everything and indebted to my environment with its flaws and critiques. Thankful as I exist in such an easy era to master and learn approximately everything without virtually serious obstacles. To cite an example, you can be a daughter of an illiterate mother with dogmatic roots and be passionate about your own life and choices.

Fortunately, background has little to do nowadays as we can evolve and prosper without much exertion. We only need temporary seclusion, stamina, and stop being easily susceptible. Life is endearing, short, and just.

I No Longer!

I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretence, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.

I Am Doing My Best As A Singlehanded Warrior!

Everything looks disappointing and overwhelming, but I incline to optimism and diligence as hard work pays off undoubtedly! Relics, nepotism, intermediaries, critiques, scrutiny, corruption, intrusion, perversion, gossips, plots, etc are transient and would never last or Hurt us!

Remember me in your prayers and du’a as I feel paralyzed. I need resourcefulness to move ahead with peace.

Even Covid19 Has Pros And Cons.

Develop in your heart the feeling of love for your people and let it be the source of kindliness and blessing to them. Do not behave with them like a barbarian, and do not appropriate to yourself that which belongs to them. Remember that the citizens of the state are of two categories. They are either your brethren in religion or your brethren in kind. They are subject to infirmities and liable to commit mistakes.Imam Ali

Look how inert we are today because of covid19. It is a lesson to value everything and to reshuffle our priorities. Instead of wars, missiles, bombs, factions, brutality, etc, we are in a battle with a domineering and an imponderable organism which will overturn a lot of things after its disappearance. Consternation has become our company walking side by side when we go out or talk to people and this is a great lesson to value reassurance.

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As an Arab woman who belongs to a bigoted family and tribal roots, I know well the meaning of paralysis, the bitterness of stillness for more than seven years, but to witness it globally is unexpected. Covid19 is much better than human beings as it is even-handed inflicting princes, ministers, inmates, and vagabonds. Covid19 is blind catapulting whites, blacks, monotheists, and atheists!Ironically, I am blossoming mentally and emotionally because I am making some progress at work. Scourges were spurs to forge ahead with my plans, The pandemic will be a spur too to redress our mistakes as human beings.

we should do away with all forms we inherited from the past which clamp themselves like chains around our wrists, feet, spirit, thoughts, will and vision.

I am a daughter of an illiterate woman who devoted herself to raise me and my siblings to become lawyers, a doctor, and a banker. I thank that woman for giving me what she was deprived of. I and my sister would face the same destiny of Nujood Ali. In the upper of Egypt, concubinage is still happening in the name of traditions and customs.

Thankfully, my mother was unintentionally a reformer who wanted to moved forward without toppling down others’ pedestals or statues until we safely passed by. Within a few days my mother will turn 51 years old and I have promised her to travel together but covid19 has become the master. It was a long break and I invested it in work and reading some books about women, misogyny, religions, and I found out a great book “Fatima is Fatima, Ali Shariati” and here are some mesmerising quotes from the book,

“They try to explain social traditions, which have come into being through habit, in religious terms. Ancient customs cannot be retained by the force of religion for if this were so, it would mean that religion is mortal. When we equate religion and social traditions, we make Islam the guardian of declining forms of life and society. We mistake cultural and historical phenomena with inherited, superstitious beliefs. Time comes along, and as it moves in haste, it changes habits, forms of life, social relationships, indigenous, historical phenomena and ancient, cultural signs. We mistakenly believe the Islamic religion to be these social traditions. Aren’t these great errors being committed today? Aren’t we seeing them with our own eves?”

“My father chose my name, and my last name was chosen by my ancestors. That’s enough, I myself choose my way.”

I apologise for the delay in answering your messages and emails as I was super busy. It was a long break, so I do not know if you still remember me or still interested in reading my blog!

Stay safe and blessed!